first day back!

march 20: my first day back to work since december 27!

i took a few months off through the winter because of the flu epidemic in colorado. the vaccine proved to be about 40% effective this year, and we were seeing a LOT of flu cases in the ER.  pregnancy is a higher risk category so i just didn't want to have the exposure unnecessarily since i don't technically have to work.  the time off was wonderful in a surprising way. it was almost a "test-run" for being a full time stay at home mom, and i actually loved it.  i didn't know if i would be bored or find meaning in staying home full time but i loved it, and felt more relaxed in general.  i decided to go back a few days a month through the end of my pregnancy and then decide over my maternity leave if i want to return to work at all with two babies. 

my first shift back was good though, and i remembered why i do love being a nurse also. tough decisions lie ahead for me, deciding what to do. in some ways i can't imagine my 13 year nursing career coming to a close, but in others i think this season of my life may have more meaning to be to stay at home and raise babies & run a home with more peace and balance.  hopefully time this summer with two littles (not to mention building a house, selling a house, moving, etc!!!!) will bring some peace & clarification to me about what the best decision for our family is.